So....

So, got my beta on Monday. Surprise, Surprise. Big Fat Fucking Negative. FAIL.

I had a long chat with my nurse and explained to her I think it is lunacy that we are considering going up to 200 mg of Clomid. I told her about the mood swings and how I could barely find myself hiding in this monster lately. She went and had a chat with Dr. K, and Mr. jme and I are going in to see him tomorrow at 8 AM to discuss what's next. I want to move on to injectables, and more than likely will, but my RE has concerns for some reason that I may have endo. WTF? I thought endo was visible though u/s and HSG's, and he is considering doing a laproscopy on my before continuing treatment. At this point, I am not wanting to have a surgery just b/c there is a chance I have a mild case. I want my chance to try again now, damn it. I have conceived once before; surely that is a sign I can do it again with out an invasive procedure, right?

Sigh. Of course, I don't have the answers to my questions. Come tomorrow, I hoep that will change. Either way, my nurse signed me up for injectables class tomorrow from 2-4, so it looks like this will be my future in TTC, whether it is soon or a few months off post- op.

Please pray for this Bitter Betty. I will update y'all tomorrow. XO