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So, for my Bump chicas....yep, it was a BFFN.

I was a complete wreck Friday. I POAS around 2:30 AM, and could not go to sleep after knowing the truth. I cried like a newborn at the RE's office for my Beta. I cried again at work when my RE personally called me to tell me it was officially a BFN. I cried as I packed up my clothes and toiletries to hit Destin, Florida for the weekend. I wish I had been in the mood to take some pictures, because I would have posted them here.

When my RE called though, he told me that he felt that IVF was my best shot at getting pregnant. I very quickly pointed out to him that my insurance did not cover IVF, leaving me out in the cold for further treatments. He said, "You are covered." I said, "No, I'm not." He said, "I believe you are." And this exchange went back and forth for a few more seconds. I asked him to get his insurance specialist to try and confirm this.

The insurance specialist called and told me that she was not able to get a human being on the phone, but as of December 2009, I got a $5K maximum IF spend, which I have probably already spent at least $1,000 of with the 2 IUI's, as well as a $10,000 OOP maximum that we are looking into using as well. Mr. jme and I have always been in agreement that if it were to come to IVF for us to get pregnant, we would donate my eggs for another couple who are in great need of a BFP too. Not only does this cut the cost of our IVF significantly, but it gives us the joy of helping someone else stuck in the misery that IF is.

So, after some talks, we went ahead and scheduled an IVF consult to see how to get the ball rolling on April 30th at 3 PM. I am looking forward to exploring my options.

In the meantime, I am reclaiming the joy my life used to have, and this weekend was the first good step.